Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Presence
A cup of coffee with you or a ride in your van is something that I could use today. Michele is home and that brings with it great joy, wonderful reunion and much needed equilibrium. But I have also been sitting on these negative voices - you know the ones - for a week now. Placing them before God the best I can, working around them, in them, in spite of them. Is it too much to ask to be rid of this, to be free? Is it a mirage, a reordering of my past to think it was ever different? Yet in this the presence of love is not hidden, is not retracted. Maybe this is the limp, like Jacob, that I am to walk with - the sign of my wrestling with the angel. The best I can do this morning is to lean towards love. I looked at the window this morning hoping a honda van was idling outside.
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Matt,
ReplyDeleteThanks for this. Glad Michele made it home safely. It was great to see her and great for Holly to be with her. Sorry our crew had the crud while she stayed with us.
I have thought about you much throughout the day and have, as usual, many thoughts. Twenty-minutes of Skype is so great and yet a joke against all there is to hear and share.
I will put some of it down tonight in the form of a post that has been growing throughout the day, unless I get sidetracked. I am grateful for our friendship, for the technology that allows us to communicate across the world, and for a chance to see and talk with you this morning. I love you much.
I pray the voices you hear tonight and tomorrow are ones of love and encouragement, and peace.